You might find yourself dwelling on all your past relationships and how they ended. You recall all the good memories when you were happy, and you would think bringing it back means reclaiming your happiness.
Although deep down you know they are not good for you, you choose to ignore this fact. You convince yourself that this time is different and there has to be a way to make it work.
You get in touch with people who once were a huge part of your life, give them a call or send a text, hoping for a second chance. Or, if that doesn’t work out, you settle for any person that comes your way.
You think about the near future instead of the long run because you suddenly decided to “live in the moment” when you’ve been a worrier about the future all your life.
You convince yourself it is meant to be because you met the person who completes you and they “swept” you off your feet when you needed it most.
You fabricate things that are far from reality just to make the relationship work which, in turn, will compensate for the feeling of being lonely. In other words, you employ poor judgment and choose unhealthy relationships that are unlikely to last to feel less lonely.
What is Loneliness?
Being in a relationship doesn’t mean there’s no room for loneliness. In fact, more than 60% of married people are lonely due to the absence of a deep connection of love and understanding. Loneliness is a deficiency in the social connection with people. One could be in a room full of people, yet feel alone.
Humans have a basic need to belong, which is related to stable relationships that allow us to express our thoughts and emotions. The connection contributes to our emotional health. Loneliness is a response to this particular need.
Loneliness turns us into our biggest enemy. We question every move we make because we feel like we’re outcasts who are oddly-wired. When we feel incredibly left out and insecure, we tend to keep ourselves locked up in a place where one should never be left alone in. We create our own little messed up world in our heads where nothing is good enough, a world where there’s no escape because destructive thoughts keep running and running at full speed. The deeper they become, the more damage they cause.
We live in this world we’ve created where unrealistic thoughts reside. We become so emotionally detached and distant that it becomes so difficult for us to get out of bed and get things done. We lose the meaning of life and our existence. The quieter the room, the louder the mind. It’s like loneliness demands to be felt. It feels like we’ve given up on setting ourselves free because we’re trapped and there’s no way out. It just never stops.
We seek someone who makes our existence easier to deal with and provides us with the reassurance we need to feel better about ourselves. We need someone to make us feel like we aren’t as horrible as we think we are. We need someone to open up to and trust our deepest secrets.
But when we have thoughts, dreams, or fears to share and have no one to share them with, we feel abandoned. When we don’t have anyone to keep us busy from our demons, we become victims of our demons. It eats us from the inside, painfully and slowly. We involuntarily become alone with our thoughts and feelings that damage the way we perceive ourselves and our relationship with others.
We feel we have a void in our hearts and the fastest way it could be filled is by welcoming an intimate partner who showers us with compliments and love. We run away from our loneliness and fail to realize that it’s just temporary. We fail to realize that we’re seeking what’s good in the short run rather than the long one. You reminisce over the good times, choosing to avoid the bad because they were the good old days and now we’re stuck in a place that feels so incredibly lonely.
When you love the person for the way they make you feel, not for whom they truly are, you’re choosing them out of loneliness. When you want to avoid their flaws instead of accepting them, you’re choosing them out of loneliness.
We all feel lonely at some point in our lives, one way or another, no matter how much we try to deny it or hide it. We hate the fact we’re lonely but it doesn’t change the fact that we are. Or worse, we’re not aware of our loneliness.
When we haven’t felt loved in a long time, we long for attention so we try to set ourselves up with anyone that gets our way. We forget about the terms and conditions and priorities we’ve originally set, and settle for less than what we desire or deserve. However, the way everyone deals with loneliness varies. You can choose to deal with it by overcoming it or let it take over you and make it even worse.
Loneliness can easily play tricks on you and convince you that it is love. If you are broken, love is not the solution. Love can help you become a better version of yourself, but it’s not supposed to fix you. You can’t fall in love if you aren’t satisfied with yourself and your life as a whole. If you can’t be good on your own, a relationship is the last thing you should think of.
Loneliness leads you to settle for people who would make you feel even lonelier than you were because they aren’t the ones who you truly deserve or want. Before you think of being with someone, make sure that you’re happy with who you are and the life you’re living. Once you learn more about yourself and what is it that you really want, choosing the right partner becomes much easier.